face with an affectionate hand. He
kissed my fingers and then pecked me on the forehead like I was
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his little sister and gently pushed my shoulders.
“ Get some sleep Shouty, I’ll wake you in the morning,” he
said, as he smiled displaying that dimple. Just as he was about to
turn away, I flung my arms around him, lassoing his neck, kissing
him fully. At first he did not respond. So I kissed him with every-
thing I had. I grinded my torso against his manhood and then I
felt him respond as his hands went under my nightie palming my
ass. The fire was ignited. The torrid passion of flames roared. His
lips found their way to my neck as his hands pulled my gown
down exposing my breasts. My nipples were erect. He squeezed
and sucked them greedily. I moaned. I could feel his stiff erection
running down my thigh. His lips and tongue trailed my flesh,
licking me like I was sweet molasses. I was moist and getting wet-
ter with every touch. Then something panged in me. This was not
right. Through the fog of alcohol and fervid lust, clarity began to
crystallize.
This is not right! What am I doing? What am I doing?
I
thought to myself, finally I shouted, “Stop!” I placed my hand on
his chest in an attempt to push him away, but he just kept pulling
on my panties, tugging.
“ No, please!” I begged. It was as if I awakened something dor-
mant in this man. Something bestial. He was not listening to me.
He had my panties around my thighs and then pushed me against
the dresser, pinning me there. I felt my panties being torn. There
is a name for this and I couldn’t believe this was happening to me.
In one quick motion he slid out of his pants. His erection was
enormous and crooked, leaning to one side. It felt like he carried
me on it as I was being picked up and taken to the bed.
“ No,” I whimpered, but even to me it sounded like “yes” and
I wasn’t putting up much of a fight. Even as he climbed in between
my legs placing on a condom, my futile resistance seemed to only
excite and arouse him more. “Noooo …” My words were silenced
with his kisses. He was in between my legs and his touch was as
gentle as a feather. I was still saying “no” as he entered me slowly.
The pain was excruciating. I never knew that hurt could feel so
good.
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“ Hope,” he called my name like I was his goddess. With that,
my legs spread and invited him into my kingdom–open sesame.
“ Hope, I just want to make love to you.” His words a murmur
against my hot flesh as I moaned out loud in ecstasy. Slow and
passionate were his loving strokes. He has not entered me fully as
if to see if my body could withstand the length of his manhood.
His short strokes were driving me crazy.
“ Hope, do you like this?” He eased deeper inside of me.
“ Yes! Yes! Yes!” I lamented praising Jesus, cursing out God as I
road the ebb and flow of the torrent tide of his skillful lovemak-
ing. He thrust deeper, testing my womanhood. I felt him going
where no man had ever gone before, impaling what felt like my
chest cavity. His strokes, even tempered, like he was measuring
just how to love my body. As he reached his destination, I felt my
body shake and shiver in uncontrollable convulsions that sent me
into fits. I was out of control as Life road my body like I was a wild
stallion and he was a Black cowboy. I had an orgasm that made me
scream. The whole time his lovemaking never stopped. He
devoured my body like lovemaking was an art to be crafted and
practiced solely on me. Twenty or thirty short strokes and then
one deep stroke. Ten short strokes and then one painfully deep
long one, and still he was not even halfway inside of me. I reached
another orgasm with one of his deep stroke maneuvers as my fin-
gers clawed his back. He spread my legs wider grabbing my ass,
pushing deeper inside of me causing the throes of desire to
explode. Showing me yet another facet