Micah by Laurell K. Hamilton Read Free Book Online

every week that reminds you of him.” He frowned, shook his head. “This room is my flowers to you, Anita. Why won’t you let me give it to you?”
    â€œThe flowers are a lot less expensive than this room,” I said.
    He frowned harder and it wasn’t a look I’d seen much on his face. “Is it money that makes thedifference for you, Anita? I draw a decent salary from chairing the Furry Coalition.”
    â€œYou’ve earned the salary, Micah. You average, what, sixty hours a week?”
    â€œI’m not saying I don’t deserve the money, Anita. I’m just asking why you won’t take this from me, when you take gifts from Jean-Claude?”
    â€œI didn’t like the flowers at first either. You got to town just after I’d given up fighting about it with him.”
    He smiled then, but it wasn’t a really happy smile. More rueful. “We’re going home tomorrow, Anita. I don’t have time for you to get used to the idea.” He sighed. “I was looking forward to spending some time, just us, and you aren’t happy about it. I think my feelings are hurt.”
    â€œI don’t want to hurt your feelings, Micah.” I really didn’t. I touched his arm, but he stepped out of reach and went back to unpacking. The tight feeling in my stomach returned, but for a different reason.
    Micah never fought with me. He never pushed about our relationship. Up until that moment, I’dhave thought he was happy. But this didn’t feel happy. Was that my fault because I wasn’t enjoying the room? Or was this a talk that had been coming, and I just hadn’t known it?
    â€œYou know,” he said from the bed, “you are the only woman I know who wouldn’t be asking me questions about how I met Agent Fox.”
    The change of topic was too fast for me. “What? I mean, do you want me to ask?”
    He stopped with the toiletries kit in his hands, as if he had to think about his answer and moving would have interfered with the thinking. “Maybe not, but I want you to want to ask. Does that make any sense?”
    I swallowed past my rapidly speeding pulse. This felt like the beginnings of a fight. I didn’t want to fight, but without Nathaniel or someone else to help me talk my way out of it, I wasn’t sure I knew how to derail it. “I’m not sure I understand, Micah. You don’t want me to ask, but you want me to want to ask.” I shook my head. “I don’t understand.”
    â€œHow can you, when even I don’t understand it?” He looked angry for a moment, and then his facesmoothed out to its usual handsome, pleasant neutrality. It had only been in the last month that I’d realized how much pain and confusion he hid behind that face. “I want you to care enough about me to be curious, Anita.”
    â€œI do care,” I said, but I kept myself pressed against the open French door. My hands were behind my back, fingers clutching the door like it was an anchor to keep me from getting swept away in the emotional turmoil.
    I puzzled for a way out of the fight that was coming and finally had an idea. “I thought you’d tell me when you were ready. You’ve never asked me about my scars.” There. That was a valid point.
    He smiled, and it was his old smile, the one I’d almost broken him of. The smile was sad, wistful, self-loathing, and had nothing to do with anything pleasant. It was a smile only because his lips went up instead of down.
    â€œI guess I haven’t asked about the scars. I figured you’d tell me if you wanted me to know.” He had all the clothes put away, only the toiletries case stillwaiting on the bed. “I promised Nathaniel I’d order food when we got here,” he said.
    Again the conversational switch was too fast for me. “Are we changing the topic?”
    He nodded. “You scored a point.” He said, “You