my skin.
When I was about to reach orgasm I slowed down and paced myself. I felt overcome with sadness. This had to be the last time I thought. It was getting too emotional and the more time I spent with him the harder it would be for me to leave. Finally, Alejandro came inside me. He held me so close and tight I thought he would never let me go.
The next day Alejandro invited me to the base. I rode with him in his jeep through the military gates. I looked around at all the men in uniform. It was a place of testosterone and shapely muscled men. It was heaven. Alejandro wore his tight Navy uniform and I wanted to rip it off of him. I could get used to this. I started to imagine this being my life. Living in a tropical paradise with this brave man.
“This is it. Let me show you around,” he said.
I got out of his jeep and walked around with him. He showed me the aircraft carrier parked in the marina and then the barracks. I was turned on beyond belief. After we walked around I caught a cab back to the resort. Alejandro had to stay on the base. He wouldn’t be free to leave until the following weekend. The problem was I had to leave back to my life. I didn’t know what to do and I was so conflicted.
That night around midnight there was a knock at my door.
“Yes?”
“Elaine, it’s me. It’s Alejandro.”
I opened the door and let him in.
“Alejandro, I thought you leave the base.”
“I can’t I could get in trouble for being here.”
“Oh no! I don’t want you to get in trouble.”
Then he started to spout off in Spanish. He was angry I could tell. I had no idea what he was saying. His anger and the language was a turn on to me. I wondered if anything this man could ever do would not turn me on. This is what it was suppose to be like. An undying passion and lust that went on no matter what mood you are in.
We argued for what seemed like hours. I couldn’t make him see things my way, and I wouldn’t see it his way. It was a passionate argument full of emotion. Neither of us wanted this to end, but there was no real solution.
“Elaine, I want to be with you always. I don’t want to end it now. I have fallen for you. Do you feel the same? Be honest please.”
My head spun. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to be honest and declare my love for him but I couldn’t be hurt again. Not again. But I didn’t follow this warning and simply said, “Yes.”
He sighed relief and then said, “Come with me. Come live here with me. Everything else we can figure out later. The only thing that matters is I know I can’t be apart from you. I don’t want that. Come live here please. Just try. If it doesn’t work for you, then we will figure out something else. ”
“I want too.”
“Come here, be with me, live with me here. I promise till I die I will never leave you. I risked my life for you. Does that not show you that this is forever? I am yours forever and you are mine.”
I sat in silence. He rescued me, my Navy Seal lover. I replayed that scene in my head. Me feeling frantic that I was going to be lost out at sea forever and die out there. Then seeing him run to the house and then run back and dive into the ocean. His face hard with determination stroke after stroke as he swam to me fighting the ocean to get to me like the Navy Seal hero he was.
That was it. I knew what I had to do.
“Yes, I will stay here. I will move here with you.”
Alejandro didn’t say anything. He scooped me up as he had done on our first night together. He threw me on the bed. I laughed as I bounced off the mattress.
A month later I was settled into his beach house on the oceanfront and was getting used to his comings and goings on special covert operations for the Navy. I made friends with some of the Navy wives and found a travel magazine to write for. It was all coming together and I couldn’t believe that this was now my life. I had come to Puerto Rico heart broke and trying to pull myself together. Then I
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