and the shoes and the earring. Soon he was hanging out with this whole new group of artsy/punk rock kids, and we just sort of stopped talking. I mean, yes, it was weird in the beginning, because we had been really good friends, and then we just werenât. And to be honest, I was angry at him for not opening up to me. There he was, three months after the most tragic event of his life, spending time with all of these kids heâs never even talked to before, and he doesnât even call me? So we went our separate ways, and that was that. Or at least, it was, until Mr. Wallace took it upon himself to force us back together again.
Like I said, this trip is going to be the end of me.
***
Jesse is waiting for me in the hallway when class is over.
âSo, cool topic, huh?â he asks in an impossible-to-read tone.
On our way out, Mr. Wallace handed us all papers with our topics on them. Ours is to look at one work of art from each of three different time periods and to discuss how spirituality is represented in each. Iâm not sure that I would describe it as âcool,â though. Spirituality isnât exactly my thing. But Iâm also not sure if Jesse is being sarcastic or serious, so I donât answer him.
Maya Franklin walks over to us, and sheâs giving me the evil eye. Now what did I do? I wonder.
âSorry weâre not partners, Jesse,â she says. âI think we wouldâve made a good team.â Wait a second, is she flirting with him? Does Maya Franklin have a thing for Jesse Cooper? Ew. Just thinking about her liking a boy gives me the creeps, let alone thinking about her liking Jesse Cooper.
âUm, yeah,â Jesse says, looking confused. âGood luck, I guess.â
Maya flashes a fake smile at me and walks away. Weird.
â Anyway ,â I say, choosing not to comment on the bizarreness of that exchange, âwe donât have a lot of time, so we should figure out a schedule for going to the museum.â
He thinks for a second. âYou know, theyâre open late on Thursday nights. Do you think you could go tonight? Like, around 6:30?â
Wow . He really has changed. The Jesse I knew was a total procrastinator. Thereâs nothing Iâm supposed to do tonightâaside from some science and math homework, my schedule is wide open. I think of Samantha and Lindsayâs note again. My life is boring, isnât it?
âSure, I can go tonight,â I say. I notice that he has a small tattoo on the inside of his left wristâthough from this distance I canât quite make out what it is. My mind starts racing with questions. When did he decide to commit so permanently to this look of his? Does he think that this is at all weird, because heâs acting like we were never good friends and then not friends? Why does he act like that kiss in the closet never even happened? Maybe heâs had so many kisses since then that he doesnât even remember?
âGreat,â he says. âIâll see you then.â He chews his bottom lip, and staring at those lips, I feel my face get hot. I turn away before he sees me and think for the hundredth time in a very short while: God, I am so lame.
Nine
Thanks to Jesse, I had almost forgotten about the box.
When I arrive home from school today Iâm surprised for a second to see it there, sitting on my desk.
I glance at my watch. Lindsay and Samantha are going to be here any minute. Normally, I would wait for them and make them open it with me, but thereâs just something about the way Roni said those wordsâ it was very important to Kate that you not open it until youâre alone âthat makes me think I should do as she said.
Moving quickly, I slit the packing tape open with my house key. I donât know what Iâm expecting, exactly. Pictures? Letters? Some sort of explanation? My stomach flutters nervously and I hold my breath as I pull open the top flaps and look