know, Hannah. You tell me.â
I stared at her, at a loss. âWhat do you mean?â
âDo I have to explain?â Martha gave me an exasperated look. âYou were the last person to see Danny. Youâre his best friend â you tell each other everythingâ¦â
âNot any moââ
âNever mind what you said to the police. Youâre not seriously telling me you have absolutely no idea where he is?â
I shook my head vigorously. âNo, Martha, really I donâtâ¦â
âCome off it, Hannah. You must know something .â
âWhat do you want me to say? I told them everything I could think of. We went over and over it.â
âBut Danny must have said or done something. Given you some kind of clue.â
âLike what?â I leaped up and faced her. âHe came round. We went out. You heard me tell the police all about it the first time.â
âI heardââ
âThis isnât my fault,â I said, a rush of feeling punching out the words. âWhy are you blaming me? I mean, how do we know Danny even planned it? What if he wasâ¦?â
I stopped before I said it. The one thing no one wanted even to contemplate. That Danny hadnât chosen to leave. I felt my cheeks flush, the heat of anger in my face. But underneath I was starting to panic. The last thing I wanted was to fall out with Martha; it was hard enough coping without Mum. Especially now.
But Martha appeared not to hear me. Her voice rose, her frustration taking over. Her face was full of a mad energy Iâd never seen before, her eyes narrowed, her chin jutting towards me as she spoke.
âI donât believe you,â she spat. âI canât believe that you had no clue what was going on. The two of youââ
â Back off, Martha .â
Dadâs voice made us both jump. He was standing in the doorway, watching. I couldnât be sure how long heâd been there or how much heâd heard.
âDonât tell me you actually believe any of this!â Martha asked, her voice climbing still higher. She stared at him and I sensed the tension between them, like static before a storm.
âBelieve what, Martha? Dannyâs gone missing, and itâs very distressing. But that doesnât mean that my daughter knows anything about it.â
Marthaâs eyes never left his. She looked for a moment like she was going to say something else, then changed her mind.
âCome on, David. You canât be serious. Those two have always been as thick as thieves. They tell each other everything.â
âMartha, I know youâre upsetââ
âUpset? Of course Iâm bloody upset. My sonâs been missing for a week now and the last person to see him is sitting here acting all innocentâ¦â
âShe is innocent, Martha,â Dad growled, his face rigid with anger. â You know that . Whateverâs happened to Dannyâ¦wherever he is and whether he planned it or not, Hannah had nothing to do with it.â
Martha glared at him, something twitching in her cheek.
âYouâre not thinking straight, Martha. Why would Hannah hide anything? Sheâs as anxious as anyone to have Danny home.â
Martha looked at me, then back at Dad. âYou can believe what you like, David,â she muttered. âYou always have.â
Dadâs head jerked back as if heâd been hit. No one spoke for several seconds. Then Martha sank into the armchair, dropped her face into her hands and burst into tears.
Dad and I stood there, not moving, just listening to her awful gasping sobs.
âIâm sorry,â she cried, running the heel of her hand across her cheeks, leaving a dark smear of mascara. âIâm sorry. I didnât mean⦠I keep thinking itâs all my fault. I mean, if I hadnâtâ¦â
âHadnât what?â Dad asked.
Martha sighed. âOh, I donât