belly sped in through a gap in the screen, through the open window by the sink. âSpiders,â I said, âare good luck.â
âNot in the house,â Mother said. âSmash it, will you?â
âNot good, not good.â I squashed the thing with a paper towel. âBad luck,â I said.
âWilson says to wait until the grapes are picked and see what the situation looks like then.â Mother got that crease between her eyebrows she gets when sheâs angry or tired or sad.
âI donât know why you listen to what Wilson says.â
âYour father wants to listen to Wilson,â Mother said. With her index finger, she tried to put her eyelashes back in order. They were all crisscrossed one over the other. âYour father is a wonderful farmer and a wonderful husband, but he canât spot an idiot.â
âFelix listens to Wilson, I guess.â
âFelix doesnât listen to anyone but Felix.â
âYou know, he talks a lot, but Iâve had wines that cost more than ten dollars at Uncle Felixâs house.â
She looked at me, and all I could see was that awful crease. âYou really canât believe one word he says.â When I was in high school, Uncle Felix had federal charges brought against him for trying to pass off cheap grapes as cabernet. He had tossed cabernet leaves over grapes from a less expensive varietal. He worked out a plea to avoid jail, but he is now, technically, a felon. âYou know that, right?â
âLetâs go to Zapatoâs,â I said. Even the flicker of heat from the stove to boil the eggs was too much to bear in this house, in July, in Fresno. I donât know how Mother managed to bake the pie. âAnd then letâs go get you new nightgowns.â
âI donât like the food at Zapatoâs. You like Zapatoâs because you want a margarita.â
âOr Bootsieâs.â
âYes, you should go see Bootsie,â Mother said. âPoor Bootsie.â Bootsie Calhoun moved back from New York to look after the familyâs property (her brother was useless and smoked too much heroin) and had opened a small but popular restaurant in the Tower District. Her father was killed in a car accident on Avenue 22. Heâd gone missing, and by the time they found him in his overturned car on the dry embankment of the Mendota Canal, his identification and sheepskin seat covers and the hubcaps from his old Mercedes had been stolen.
âYou should come with me,â I said.
âI donât want to go out of the house.â
âMother.â
âI lost the keys to the silver drawer. I donât know where the keys are.â She continued playing cards.
âTheyâll turn up.â
âDo you think someone came into the house and took the keys?â
âNo. I donât think that.â
âWell, my heart is racing. I donât want to leave the house without knowing where those keys are. Donât tell your father.â
âDo you want me to crack your eggs for you?â
âYou always mess up the yolk.â She tapped the egg delicately. âIâm afraid someone took those keys out of my purse.â
âTheyâll turn up, Mom.â
âDid you make toast?â
I sliced the toast into six little strips and placed them in front of her, next to the cards.
Mother dunked her toast soldiers deep into the egg so that yolk ran over the shell. âYou made a nice egg,â she said. âI want you to eat yours.â
âI canât really eat.â
She nodded. âYou should call Bootsie Calhoun.â
My throat filled. âYou should call a lawyer.â
There was a silence in which she flipped cards, gathered them up, and shuffled. âMaybe we should have a party. A party like we used to,â she said.
âYou hate parties.â
âI hate other peopleâs parties. My parties are fun.â
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